I like my shy side better.

I am a mother and I have one friend who parents her child to my standards, other than my own mother, she is my only "Mom-friend." I feel I am strange, if I go to meet other moms I will have to fake a personality because I am unconventional and quite odd. I am outgoing with one side of myself but I am a Gemini and have another, much shyer side and I wish with my entire being that people knew that side of me. I like my shy side better. My shy side is a great singer, and no one knows because I'm too shy to sing for anyone other than my baby. My shy side is also anxious and unsure of every decision I have to make. When I finally make a decision, chances are I have agonized for days about all the things I might feel about my choice. Now I can't even decide if I should publish this...